Joy Of Dawn

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Feeling Blue

I don’t feel like doing anything. I just want to sit on the couch eat lots of chocolate and ice cream. Then I get this your-fat-feeling an I don’t feel like doing that either. We just got back from a short week long trip to PA so there is a bunch of stuff to do, you know the usual stuff like laundry and dishes and unpacking and locating the items your missing…
Last night I fell asleep on the couch which is expected when you’ve been in a car for hours the day before. Tonight… I don’t really have that excuse. I’m not tired, I just don’t want to do anything. A list of things to accomplish and I have zero ambition. I hate this feeling, this lack of effort, this blah.
Instead of simply indulging in an over abundance of Netflix I got up, lit a candle, pulled together the laundry, and got ready to start dishes. Until I decided to make this rather depressing post. I like to be busy. I like to be doing things. This lack of desire to do the things I want to get done is awful.
I have this I-wanna-go-home feeling, yet… I have everything I need right here. Except for the fact that he is currently at work and out of snuggling range. šŸ™‚ I guess I’m hoping that by writing this out I’ll feel better and I have to admit that it is working a bit.
I still don’t want to do anything. I still want chocolate and ice cream but I am feeling a little less blue.
So much to do… Guess I’m going to have to push myself out of my own slump. šŸ˜› Starting to smell the candle. Dishes won’t do themselves. Waiting for my man to come home.
Hoping for better days. At least ones that don’t feel quite so blue…

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February 27, 2015 - Posted by | Uncategorized

4 Comments »

  1. Oh how I feel for you. I’ve been there. Those first years in Iowa seemed to last an eternity….so far from home…from everyone I loved other than my man. And when my man was away….oh yes, that was hard! Staying busy is certainly a necessity! Do you have places to volunteer or submerge yourselves with other like minded people?

    Comment by orthodoxmom3 | February 28, 2015 | Reply

  2. I think I’ve done pretty good at keeping myself pretty busy. Every time we return from a trip in PA I get this blah feeling that lasts for at least a week.
    We haven’t really gotten to know anyone out here. We aren’t very good at embracing our Missouri life. Plus I’m too chicken to really do anything by myself. :3 We get to go to church every other week when Justin is off work. Recently I will walk to the store or the library on nice days. That’s about as adventurous as I have gotten so far. šŸ™‚

    Comment by joyofdawn | February 28, 2015 | Reply

  3. Been there and felt like that. A lot actually. Nothing sounds right and even things that sound good for a minute end up not feeling right about 5 minutes after you start. Maybe just taking a shower, going for a quick walk or doing a 15 minute bible study will refresh you.

    Comment by Mariah | March 1, 2015 | Reply

    • That actually is exactly what worked! I can’t sleep anymore… šŸ˜› I exhausted that option and the TV series I was watching on Netflix ran out of episodes… So turned on some music, started doing some reading, thought about writing and ended up doing dishes! šŸ™‚ Ambition returned. Woot! Good bye blues.

      Comment by joyofdawn | March 1, 2015 | Reply


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